My profile has been live to two months. Its been a whirlwind of emotions. Somedays I am frantic and I wish it would all happen tomorrow. But I know deep down it will happen when it should happen. It doesn’t make it any easier.
I wonder what he or she will be like? What colour eyes and hair my baby will have? Will fussy be its middle name or will it just curl up in our egobaby carrier and easily go along with life? I look at toddlers and wonder when he/she will walk, what the first words will be and whether I will be good with styling its hair – unlike my mother and her bowl-cut shaves. Smile.
Then I get all worried about TV, and the amount of commercials before children films. Can I keep him/her safe so he/she will know always where home is – no matter what life throws at him/her?
Mostly though I just want to me a mother and hold my baby in my arms. Oh I long for that moment.
